Sam (played by delicious Natalie Portman) said this in Garden State:

"This is your one opportunity to do something that no one has ever done before and that no one will copy throughout human existence. And if nothing else, you will be remembered as the one guy who ever did this. This one thing."

One way to judge your growth as a human being is by making sure you don't repeat the same mistakes over and over. And once you've also learned to accept all sides of you, it becomes a whole lot easier to sleep at night.

Looking at the time I'm writing this, apparently I haven't just yet.

I know the fight when you struggle every morning
Just to face that world one more day
And you're holding on to life while a northern wind is blowing
Just believe your help is on the way

In the end, you're gonna find that strength that lies within
And in the end, all you need is the comfort of a friend
And in the end, you won't break 'cause you're learning how to bend
And the hand of God will guide you always, in the end.

Life has a funny way of bringing out the best by bringing on the pain.

With so many balls you're juggling in the air, it can get a little overwhelming sometimes. Enough to push whatever tiny little headache you're having into a full blown migraine. You know you're over the edge already when blood vessels are popping all over your cranial regions.

I'm no Superman, really. And I could sure use some help from Ultramen right now.

I must have been a very good boy lately. I got invited to the press preview of Afdlin Shauki's Baik Punya Cilok yesterday. Unfortunately, I could not do justice to the privilege given as I did not manage to sit through the whole movie due to prior commitments and last minute scheduling change due to the public holiday the day before. As a result, I'm now suffering from a massive movie cliffhanger syndrome (I only got into 1/3rd of the movie to be exact). Nonetheless, I think the movie is worth parting a bit of your cash with like Sepet and Gol & Gincu, which is what I'll be doing as soon as the movie is out for public viewing in order to get over this darned cliffhanger syndrome.

The sound in this movie doesn't bleed ears, by the way -- it blows whatever earwax you have in your auditory canals. You won't get that on them skanky assed pirated VCDs/DVDs, yo.

A few people have been telling me that they have been having dreams involving yours truly lately. If you happen to be one of them and is a member of the opposite sex (bonus points if you're one of them Hot Malay Girls), do tell me if it involved some form of moisture. Let's talk and see if there's a chance for any possible future re-enactment in real life. If you're a guy and it involved moisture too, do tell so that I can bitch/pimp slap you to your senses. Unless of course, if that dream involved bitch/pimp slapping AND moisture AND you're a guy, in which case, let me just kick you in the nuts till you talk in the key of F#.

I was privileged enough to be invited to attend a forum organized by Institut Kajian Politik dan Ekonomi (IKAPE) for a talk on Current Issues In Malaysian Politics today, whose speaker was none other than Tun Dr. Mahathir Mohamad himself. It was certainly interesting to hear Dr. M's take on some issues that are still simmering like the Approved Permits (AP), blatant abuse of power, the shortcomings of the current education system in not being able to instill character and proper values, etc. etc. although he contends that there really are no pressing issues these days. He's still as witty as always as is evident when describing our poor negotiation skills (except for the vegetables for cars trade with Japan) and some slightly naughty remarks about some Ministers who are long overdue for retirement. I did find him contradicting himself on a few occasions during the speech and then the Question & Answer session though. One of his remarks during the forum has already made the news. Nik Nazmi has more on Questioning Mahathir.

For someone who underrates politics and is very much apolitical, I consider my being able to attend today's forum a personal achievement. I don't recall my brain being this attentive on Saturdays ever.

Aah... Kuala Lumpur. Land of substandard high density buildings occupied by people with blatant lack of civic consciousness (at least the place that I live at), roads that lets cars have a lifespan of 3-7 years due to the perpetual construction they undergo and then suck the life out of its users (at least the ones that I have to use on a daily basis), areas that has enough concentrations of expatriates to make you temporarily feel like you're living in a different country (again, the place where I live at), and a nation that is still scratching its head over the origin, tempo and melody of its national anthem. It's been slightly over a week since I left this place and nothing much has changed. There are some Hot Malay Girls here too. Can't be the water.

Aah... Singapore. (Is)Land of High Density Buildings (HDB), cars that mostly have a road lifespan of 5 to 7 years on the average, Ah Bengs and Ah Lians (otherwise known as Type 3 Chinese) with English names that are bordering on the pretentious (Aloysius Siew, Jebediah Gan or Pagan Wee anyone? Note: surnames have been changed to protect yours truly from any possibility of being caned, cavity searched or subjected to naked earsquats. Oh wait, wrong country), and a nation that sings their national anthem in a language that a majority of their people don't speak or understand. It's what Kuala Lumpur could have been had it had better urban township planning. It's been three years since my last trip here and everything seems to be more or less the same when I left it, although these days I heard they've got some pretty Hot Malay Girls. Must be the water.

It's been two years since I made a guest appearance on RED 104.9. Come this Saturday, December 3rd, tune in to Xfresh FM from 10pm till 12am as I'll be making yet another appearance over the airwaves, this time with a real shot at bleeding the masses' ears on Xfresh Xtended Play. Years of DJ-ing in the confines of my bedroom and webcasting to a limited audience via Cybersonique!FM has led to this. I'll be spinning and mixing 100% Malaysian music, from the likes of VE to Ruffedge to Teh Tarik Crew to Hyperkinetix to Dayang Nurfaizah to Siti Nurhaliza to Afdlin Shauki to Z-Chen among others, NON-STOP for TWO 40 minute sessions along with JFK, Little G and Altimet (of Teh Tarik Crew). I might throw in an obligatory Mawi track too if I have the time.